"And me, I still believe in paradise. But now at least I know it’s not some place you can look for, ‘cause it’s not where you go. It’s how you feel for a moment in your life when you’re a part of something, and if you find that moment… it lasts forever…"

-The Beach, (2000)

This, I think, is one of the most intriguing subject in religion. Define Paradise. Heaven. What is it? Is it a place, where we all will meet one day? With the rivers of milk and goddesses and the garden of eden. That everyone who got the chance to go in there sees it the same way? I think most people I know would agree that this is what their definition of Paradise is.

As for me, I think Paradise is a state of mind. People would have their own version of Paradise. For example, I would live in a house full of books, with my beloved, and the smell of tea would waft through the air as the kettle spout bursts of steam. There would be a lot of music, too. And movies. That's paradise to me.

And this is where that quote above correlates with my post. Paradise is a moment in your life-- Now, I don't know if people would agree with me on this one, but you know you've felt it before. That moment in time, where you feel that for this second, everything's perfect. Perfection do exist, though just for a millisecond. Another personal opinion of mine :p

So I think I've felt a scrap of what Paradise feels like. I've been in a moment where I wish time would stand still so I can be in that moment forever. It's a bit upsetting, you know? I looked at the clock and figuratively tried to stop it with my own mind. But that's impossible, and that clock just kept on moving. It's upsetting because you know this moment is for now only and it won't return to you ever again. Ah, who said that the farthest thing from us all was the past? It's a popular quote in my school, and it does hold the truth.

Sorry, this is getting too in-depth and confusing :P The point is, that during this last week, I felt it. I don't necessarily now what 'it' is though.

But you guys get the idea ;)

duile ya dyanie sekarang pake bahasa inggris terus ngeblognya

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well would you look at that.

my life is starting to get on the right track, and hopefully I won't lose my way this time. Exams exams exams and more exams coming riiiiight up, and this is it folks. The end of the line. The edge of high school. So excited to leave, yet not quite.

And this year, I will be eighteeeeeeeeeen bitchaz! I feel totally old. I guess I'm fairly legal to look at porn in some countries, eh? and drink alcohol maybe? :P I'm definitely qualified to drive a car, so that's equally cool.

But you know what scares the shit out of me? UNIVERSITIES. Will definitely work my ass off to achieve the best of the best. You have my word ;)

See? it's all good now.

half of it is because of you y'know. Yeah, hello you :)