Oh, Douglas

"Now - here is my secret:
I tell it to you with an openness of heart that I doubt I shall ever achieve again,
so I pray that you are in a quiet room as you hear these words. My secret is that I need God -
that I am sick and can no longer make it alone. I need God to help me give, because I no longer seem capable of giving;
to help me be kind, as I no longer seem capable of kindness; to help me love, as I seem beyond being able to love."

-Douglas Coupland (Life After God)


I guess I'm trying to change. Study more and pray more. Wish me luck :)

Hell-o 2010!

Hellooooo, first coherent post of 2010 here! I guess you could see from my last entry that I'm feeling rather down. And it's true actually, 2010 has been a bit rough for me and everything's just... wrong. Idk. I'm sure everybody's felt this feeling before.

Anyway sekarang udah semester 2. Artinya? Gue harus jadi budak cinta pelajaran2 skrg, terutama yang ipa. Sheit juga sih gue ternyata rank 19, turun 9 dari kelas satu :( tapi karena kelas gue isinya kayak gitu semua ya gue ga kaget2 amat, nyokap juga biasa aja gitu gue dapet ranking segitu hahaha
Tapi ya itu tadi, akhir2 ini banyak masalah; terutama di sekolah. I'm not going to talk about it here, I'm not even going to mention it anymore, but long story short: It's been tough.

Terus... gue dikecewain beberapa orang bulan ini. It's fine I guess, artinya emang kita disini itu sendiri. Lahir sendiri, mati sendiri. Hidup juga harus dibiasain sendiri. Mungkin pendapat gue salah bgt, mungkin gue terlalu cynic atau apalah, but it's better to keep the bar low. Just believe in yourself and Allah :)

Hey anyway, tadi itu foto osis alpus1 tersayanggg, semoga acara besar kita sukses ya!

and hey, three months. Not bad :)

I feel lonely.

bye?

"I am a jumble of passions, misgivings, and wants. It seems that I am always in a state of wishing and rarely in a state of contentment."



The next few weeks are gonna be fucking hectic.
Might disappear for a while.


ps: we're into the second month today :) let's hope december's better than november ok?

My passion makes me a genius, but it also makes me a fool. It inspires me to love, yet it also makes me cruel. This fire which burns within me, sustains me day and night. For it makes his yokes quite easy, and makes my burdens light. In hastiness I unravel, what is untamed within me, I lose sight of the meaning, I look but cannot see. For to see is to live and to live is to love, so instead I quiet myself, and I listen to the dove

-Laaviebohemei

November Hovember

Hello twits! long time no blog hahaha just so you know, November was hella tiring. The first week was all jamboree preparation and my brother's pre wedding ceremony, the second week was the official jamboree for the 34th batch of Alpus1 and also my brother's wedding in Bandung at the same time. The third week, which is today, was an official council briefing with the teachers to determine which programs to run and which to just scrap and junk. So it's not really weird that I caught a cold in the middle of this all right?

Oh and yesterday was my brother's dinner party at De La Rossa. My friends came too! Thank you sooo much for Kemal, Satshi, Ravy, Ahdan, Kamal, Adel, Dimas, Kresna and Dysa for coming! Also much much much love and thankfulness to Vibby and Beby <3 Pics of yesterday will be coming up soon, I'm still a bit freaked by how pale and geisha-like I was hahahaha

Anyways, I opened my pics folder in my mac and found a lot of old pics of me and my friends. Some of them are from junior high, which I'm gonna post soon enough, and some are from our earlier days of our first year in Alpus. So here you go! This was taken around January 2009? Or was it February?

gatau knp suka sama foto ini. Perspektifnya bagus gaksih? trs gue keliatan kurus yaa poin pluslah. Liat ada Kemal sama kepalanya Kresna nongol.

Ini di lift. Itu Kemal blkng gue ufufufu

Ini Adhien. Rada fisheye gitu gaksih fotonya? Oya itu ada Kemal lagi tuh nyempil di background.

pasangan homoseksual. tp yg kiri het juga sih wkwk

TRIO ALBIN ♥♥♥

Dimas. Demi Allah ini pake lensa biasa loh bukan fisheye. Emang mukanya aja kyk gini kocak abis.

With Arrey! skrg tp dia sombong gak pernah keliatan lagi. I wonder what happened to him..

Ikatan Selir Yudistira. Sekarang sudah bubar.

With Samira Fanny and Depe hahahaha I'm sorry deh dep kepilihnya foto lo yg ini

Foto official pertama? mungkin? yg gue tau ini foto genah pertama kita loh, boleh dong digedein dikit hahahaha

So that's it I guess? foto liputan dinner party mungkin akan menyusul. Tergantung mood gue :|

Blog you later twits!